Boiling

Blood is boiling

Hands sweating

Heart beating uncomfortably

Breathing shallow

Want to say mean things, mean things, mean things,

Want to defend myself, defend myself, defend myself,

Justify, excuse, explain, retort,

Shoot, hit back, block, call, text, message,

Deflect, fear…

I am not crazy! I am not insane.

I am not insane. I know I did the right thing. I know I did the right thing.

I know you abuse me. I know I have been abused by you and that you are

NOT MY FRIEND.

Maybe one day.

Maybe one day, but I can NEVER tell you … “maybe” anything.

 

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